♦ My mom is not retired. She's stopped working because of depression ans alcoholism
♦ I'm not positive 24/7. Right no I'm hating myself
♦ I did not lose weight "eating more healthy" I just made a diet. A stupid diet.
♦ I told my mom that everything was ready for the engagement party. It's not
♦ I'm not ok about the fact that I've failed at the exams. I'm stressed and I want to kill all the stupid girls that ask "whaaaaaaaaaat happened?" Yeah what happened to your common sense? do you really know what it meant to me? It meant "having a baby" and now I'm just a student, probably one of the oldest of the class..; f**k
♦ I did not spend "great holidays" I had to go to the emergency because of a "nervous pb". I could not move
♦ I'm broke. For real. And partly because I wanted a new bag for this year and not the school bag I have been using since... 2002
♦ I don't like the dress I'm going to wear at my engagement party but.... see above.
I have other things... don't want totalk about
This entry will self destruct in a few hours/minutes maybe
Comments (9)
no ones ever positive 24/7 and i always tell people im done with things when i'm not lol. and i only have 5 dollars to my name until next friday. so no worries things will look up, be strong. =D
Don't destruct it. You're not a liar, it's normal to act like this ! You have the right to fail at an exam, especcially this one ! So many people failed but finnaly be so good teacher (my aunt, failed 3 times before being a maternel directrice avec une classe multi niveaux et passionnée !!).
Crois en toi, le monde suivra (j'ai modifié un proverbe, mais ca me plais).
Pis d'abord, tu es plus "healthy" que 3/4 des personnes que je connais niveau alimentation.
We're all liars to some extent. It isn't as if you're bound to tell people here on Xanga the truth. I hope you feel better soon, though. :(
The thing about lies is, we always end up making up 5 more to cover up the first ones. If only we could all be honest with ourselves, and others as you have. Don't delete this post, it's important for you, and for other who struggle to tell the truth.
Je t'embrasse :)
Lauren
No one's perfect... we all have our problems; we've all lied. Good for you for coming out with it and accepting it. I'm proud of you and hell, I don't even know you!
I've been there with the whole failing exams thing. And always want to punch people (and possibly mothers) when they ask me what happened. Geez. Seriously? I'd support you in punching someone (but not really - violence is bad).
It's okay to feel frazzled sometimes, and it's normal to smile and hide the chaos from others. Nothing is perfect, but we keep moving on.
Take care of yourself. Even though it's a stormy season, there's still a good chance of some sunshine now and again.